Six.

ZERO SUGAR.

I started writing this in May and have no memory of what the zero sugar is in reference to. It does now seem more relevant now than then, as i wait on results as to the state of my pancreas.

Werner Herzog at 14 had a hard and fast experience that has guided him until this day.
Living in a house collecting water from a well, at the time living in Munich where he had an epiphanic moment which led to a life devoted to film.

As i prepare for an internship in the land of the rising sun, i am finding myself pondering what the big picture is in my life. I had been weaving a somewhat unguided ship through dangerous waters for the better part of my twenties. I had a bad attitude and tried to lead a party boy lifestyle that became apart of my outward personality. Which also lends itself to me coming off nonchalant and jokey to people about life and my university studies now. This is something i am picking apart day by day. But will never fully shake.

A slacker i am, but a very curious one too. I want to see how far i can push this rock.

Cyber crime, computers and space. I find myself looking back two, three even four years prior and wondering how i got here. Something changed in me. One of many epiphanies in my life, One that beamed a light toward what guides me, i was forced to ponder and shown that if I continued on the path of doing nothing, I would die. Not physically but mentally.

Damaged goods

I have been running in every direction since, still unsure exactly where i am going, but I’m going that’s for sure.

Stay tuned for my notes on living in japan, Again i wrote this in May so have since completed the internship.